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[Jul. 27th, 2007|10:23 pm] |
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I have no idea what I am gonna do with my life. I have soo many things I want to do still and it feels like im getting old with my birthday coming up and its like I wont have time to do it all. So these past few weeks I have been trying to figure something out, where I am going to be in a year. I got my orders saying when I leave Korea the army is sending me to Germany for my next duty station as of now. as much as I would love to go and live in Germany and finish up my army career there I have had other options fall into my lap. I could reenlist for Army Ranger and be part of the elite, but of course I would have to go through RIP and pass. Or I could go to Selection anytime now and deal with the suck and hopefully pass. I know I could get through all of this though and I want to feel the satisfact of being the best I could be. But the big picture is I want a family, and I want one bad :( So I want to get out of the army and finish school and hopefully meet a great girl. but I like the rush of jumping out of planes and doing missions, and it would be great if I could find a girl who would be willing to put up with a soldier and thier way of life. But those are way hard to find so it brings me to the option of getting out.... you see how I cant make up my mind on what i want to do. I have a couple months still to figure all this out. I hope I chose the right thing. any opinions would be great though. I talked to my parents and all they will say is that they support me 100% in whatever I do. lol I was hoping they would just tell me what to do. :) |
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[Jun. 24th, 2007|02:49 am] |
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To add to my last journal I realize that no on is willing to wait for someone so why should I. I have a year and a half left befor I can become a civilian. if she cant wait for it then why should I have to wait. I let my self go, and when I get back in school I will try to find someone worth it... thats my hope and if I cant well then I guess I will make the best of what I have. |
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[Jun. 24th, 2007|02:39 am] |
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So this is a journal and I am gonna write what I think even if some people are gonna kill me. I had the best sex of my life lastnight and it was awsome. I am still heeling from it. and today I turned down a really nice good looking girl and just hung out with my friends and it was the best decision I ever made. The last few weeks have been a blast with many stories and I am just waiting for someone to ask about them (a guy) and I cant wait to tell them. |
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[Jun. 6th, 2007|02:14 am] |
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Im tired and on guard, this week has been hell. Full of guard and physical exams and a lot of paperwork. Im trying to study for the soldier of Korea comp. coming up next month while trying to get all the new guys in my squad squared away. then on top of that I just found out that I have to go to the Philippines on 3 different occasions for three different missions for an unknown amount of time so that means I have to try and train someone to take my position in the squad while I am gone. Ive gotten like 4 hours a sleep the last 3 days and its not looking like im gonna be able to catch up on sleep until maybe saturday. and as much as I dislike all of this, I couldnt imagine doing anything else cause everything else would be boring.
I finally was able to talk to my dad for a couple minutes the other day. What he had to say to me worried the fuck out of me. Also what had happend was truly amazing and I thank god and my dog princess for... I have no words to explain it but my life would have changed dramatically for the worse. But it didnt so it made life that much better and me that much more thankful.
On a good note though, I was supposed to get all my wisdom teeth pulled on the 21st of this month but because of the Philippines it was canceled. |
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[May. 30th, 2007|08:58 pm] |
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So my platoon had a 5 day weekend this weekend because of Memorial day. SO myself and two of my best friends went down to Buson and pretty much spent all 5 days down there. I had the most fun ever! We partied like rockstars (literally). But we mad a pact not to tell anyone or to take many pictures for self image purposes plus one of them has a wife and the other has a serious girlfriend and I wouldnt exactly agree to what they did but whatever blah blah but yeah if you read this most likely your a good friend so I would tell you most of what happend.
On a better note I won the soldier of the year competition :) I found out early! I find this completely amazing because they really tore me up at the board. So now theres more competing I have to do and I dont want to do that at all.
Have you ever did something that you were naturally good at? cause the more I play army the more I realize im really good at it, and the wierd part is im not even trying. It makes me want to try to be something else befor I get out of the army its been on my mind for awhile and I dont know if I want to give it a go or not but im leaning more towards the go part... |
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[May. 12th, 2007|11:33 pm] |
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Oh yeah for those of you who read this and care enough to wonder about it haha I wont know who won the soldier of the year thing until June 1st. |
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[May. 12th, 2007|08:22 pm] |
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So the soldier of the year competition is over. It went pretty well for the most part. I pretty much left everyone behind when we had to do actual infantry stuff but then at the board portion all the sergent majors tore me up :( they were asking me all level 3 questions when they should have been asking me level 1 questions. so obviousley I didnt know most the answers to thier questions but i kept my cool in the board room but as soon as i walked out i was soooo flippin mad i couldnt talk to anyone cause any small thing would have set me off so i hurried up and went to the gym like right away to get some anger out and after that i was pretty much calm.
I went to the casino the other day, I really dont like going to casinos cause i dont like gambling but my two buddies wanted to go and they wanted me to go so I went. I played blackjack the whole time I was there for like 5 hours at the 10 dollar table. I only brought 80 dollars and I came out with 90 dollars :) this is like amazing i think cause i never play blackjack and have never played at a casino befor.
Teddy really likes to play out in the rain, its cute but he gets soooo dirty and naturally if hes dirty im gonna be dirty. So i took a shower with him after we were done playing. (its an open bay shower, not a bathtub shower) So he smells really good now and if hes lucky he can sleep in my bed with me tonight. but hes always lucky so he would prolly be there tonight anyways. |
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[Apr. 27th, 2007|02:43 am] |
I hate competing for things, and the army always has me competing. I have this soldier of the year thing I have to go compete in and theres like a million things I have to study now and essays I have to write. I dont like it at all.
Girls are nuts, I dont understand there reasoning at all! Maybe you could help? heres the situation.
So Aremy wants to be more then just friends. And I dont want to be in a realtionship with an army girl cause they arent able to settle down in one place and they are constntly being moved around the world. So obviously im keeping a space between us. And so she gets mad at me for keeping this space in between us. So she starts hanging out with one of my friends in the Honor Guard named Ryan and im pretty sure it is to make me jealous and in hopes that I will just all of a sudden want to be with her? She will literally call me on my phone and just to tell me that shes gonna hang out with Ryan and im like ok. Then she gets mad at me more for not caring that shes hanging out with Ryan. So I say something about her hanging out with Ryan and shes gets all mad at me for not trusting her. I try to avoid drama at all costs but it just seems like where theres a girl theres drama.
I do want a girlfriend still though, i dont really know why yet but I want one, just not a girl here. Its wierd, maybe im just looking for an excuse to go back home on leave or something. I like the feeling of having a girlfriend, someone you can be close to and who cares about you. |
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[Apr. 19th, 2007|12:03 am] |
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Oh yeah on a better note, i stopped drinking! its been almost 3 months since i have had a single beer. Not that im trying to quit or anything but its just so bad for me to drink. |
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[Apr. 18th, 2007|11:31 pm] |
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So we made it back from out FTX just fine. it was a good time for the most part. When we got back to our compamy though we ended up lossing a pair of night vision goggles. this is a very bad thing and we have been on "lockdown" ever since. Theres an investigation going on in hopes of finding them and I hope that we will be off of lockdown sometime next week.
Today we went to the range and I had to drive the LMTV (big troop carrying truck)cause i was the only one who had alicense to drive it. And I hate driving it cause its really big and korean streets are very small with lots of cars. well needles to say we made the 2 hour drive to the range just fine with no troubles. But, on the way back a korean cut into our convoy while cutting me off and my tire rubbed his car. he got out and yelled saying we need to pay him money ( he was speaking korean but we had a translator with us) then my leaders yelled at him cause it was his fault... blah blah so we just ended up rubbing off the mark with a cloth haha and he shut up and drove off.
Ive been kinda tired lately, i think it might be because i lost so much sleep while were training for like a month. I workout really hard and do some great cardio every day though now in hopes of getting back into shape from the whole month of no PT cause we were in the woods. im kinda sore now.
Lately i have been kinda down, it feels like i have friends all over the world right now but the closest friends, the ones I want to be next to. Is just not possible. I think is is because everyone is leaving marquette and growing up and i dont like it, i dont like it at all! |
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